I'm writing this blog post in an honest-to-god journal instead of just a notebook document on my computer. how 20th century. a journal I made myself no less.
sorry I haven't updated in a little while. Had a bit of a distant spell again (nothing quite as severe as the last one) and avoided the internet again. it gets me sometimes, but everything should be pretty ok now. posting on tumblr again. two rough patches in a few months is a bit much though, so I'm probably going to be looking into therapy again. that usually takes an ultimatum from one or more of my loved ones before I inevitably quit again after a few months. Is autonomously doing it myself a sign of maturity and growth? maybe, who knows! one step closer to mildly delayed "true" adulthood, one can only hope.
got super into bookbinding for about 2 weeks but now I can't really focus on it. I do this with various hobbies all of the time, that's why I have so many in the first place; I'll probably get back into it pretty shortly. at the very least for the sake of the stack of unbound textblocks on my shelf at the moment. I intend to make a page showcasing my binds sometime soon, as well as one to share all of the public domain typesets I made. got really into it.
my health problems are starting to assuage fo the first time in a while so I've been skateboarding again. I still suck at it like I always have, but I managed a kickflip over a short bench at the park the other day and it made me feel pretty cool. of course there wasn't anyone around to prove it but I'm pretty damn sure I can remember it well enough.
I had a dream involving richard nixon the other day, which really reignited my latent interest in the watergate scandal. in the dream, he was in the passenger seat of my truck and yelling at me to crash into a ditch. I got really mad about this obviously and yelled back something to the effect of "shut the fuck up dude, your name is tricky dicky, don't you have some kids to go bomb or something". ended up having a second, fuzzier dream involving him not too long after. I don't usually remember all that much of my dreams, so it's either a really obtuse and funny coincidence or I'm engaged in somnolent psychic warfare with the ghost of richard nixon.
I added some more art to my art page. mostly sketchbook stuff although I do have a few half-finished paintings sitting around I plan to knock out soon. the current plan is to break up the gallery page by category (sketchbook, "finished" works, portrait book) so that the page loads more effectively. and I like to categorize. we shall see whenever I get around to actually bothering with that.
- currently listening: Leonard Cohen - Dress Rehearsal Rag
- currently watching: I have been revisiting a lot of old favorites lately, coincidentally mostly from the year 1976! all the president's men, mikey and nicky, the man who fell to earth. tonight I plan on either rewatching the graduate or checking out the parallax view for the first time. it seems very much like my thing, so I'm excited about it.
- currently reading: just finished rereading Steppenwolf by Herman Hesse. it articulates very specific feelings I frequently feel in a beautiful and unique way. that unplacable sense of homesickness in a place where you ostensibly belong. both revelry in the beauty of humanism and melancholy in feeling out of step with it. just incredible.