not a lot of good stuff lolzers. got sick for a week and a half with Mysterious Respiratory Disease after barely leaving my house in weeks anyway and then had a minor mental crisis episode. without getting too specific it was pretty rattling. haven't really had that happen in a few years and I've been trying not to beat myself up about it but man... nothing gets you quite like your own brain. if you're a friend from my spacehey reading this then sorry I disappeared from there again, I'm still not really feeling like checking it but I will a some point. still just not feeling great and being really specific about what I do with my time, not much of which has involved my computer recently. that extends to this website, there are still a few pages I would really like to work on but they'll have to wait a bit. mostly just tired after everything, between fevers and getting scared of my own windows for a few nights I haven't been getting much sleep.
I think everything will be ok though. one of my close friends' birthday is next week so I'll get to hang out with her for the first time in a long while. and our other friends of course. she's planning on cooking dinner for us and it sounds like it's going to be stew so that is extremely exciting. I love a good stew. real refreshing food, good for the soul. I am an old man at heart truly.
I've started trying to attend more local events. before I got sick I started going to a weekly art club at the library. it's a nice way to get out but still have something occupying my hands and primary attention; it isn't out of place to just stare at my sketchbook even while actively having a conversation. I'm not great at communication skills and it gets kind of limiting but workarounds like that are nice. I still feel out of place a lot of the time but I'm at least a presence. I also started doing more stuff around the dance studio my sister attends; we've become friends with the owners over the past few years and I have done sound work for their performances for a bit but I also started helping out with building set pieces and little stuff around the studio. keeps me busy and helps some nice people out.
this evening I am working on a custom leather order I got. I haven't been doing much leatherworking but I'm making some sales which is pretty cool. ren faire season starts in a few months so people are accumulating garb. just cool as hell when I can be a part of that. never beating the joke/stereotype about your unemployed friend with a bunch of weird specific hobbies though. I have to stay curious and keep practicing new things or I'll die. it's one of the most joyful parts of human existence in my opinion. and eating meals with your friends. I love my friends.
hope yall are doing well. I put up a new painting on my art gallery page, so feel free to check it out if you're curious. it includes a moog modular synthesizer which is one of the greatest machines ever created in my opinion. it's like a living, breathing animal of a thing. there's something so specifically organic about its design to me, and it's been around for decades. incredible thing.